The Wanderer – Part Eight

Author’s Note:
This is an unedited, ongoing serial that will eventually be published in novel form. Plot/characters/elements are subject to change as it is being written. It’s currently in 1st person/present tense, but I may change it to past tense, excluding the first chapter which will act as an intro. Read at your own discretion and take note of story tags below.


Genre: Post-Apocalyptic sci-fi
Tags: prostitution, graphic sex, large age gap, violence, theft, drug/alcohol abuse, depression, rape, gang rape, cannibalism, murder, incest, child/infant death and abuse, general abuse, (more to be added as the story goes)


By the time Pytre is done eating, his lap is buried under a pile of discarded plasti-form wrappings. Frankly I’m amazed by how much he just put away.

“Full?” I ask, thinking again about the dwindling credit situation.

Pytre covers his mouth and lets out a loud belch, then gives me a shy smile. “Yes, thank you.”

The silence stretches on, and I feel awkward as hell. My eyes fall on his bruised knuckles and I look up, jerking my chin towards the bruises on his face. “Wanna talk about it?”

Pytre gets a real haunted look in his eyes and swallows.

“That’s fine,” I say, shrugging. “You don’t—“

“I left the sanctuary right after you did, like I said. I stopped in Gulchtown and asked around about you but no one knew where you were headed. I almost gave up right then.” Pytre looks down at his hands. “I didn’t really plan things well. I had barely any credits to my name. Didn’t even think to bring any Chartreuse with me to trade. I don’t know what I was thinking.” He sighs. “Then I had a stroke of luck. The bartender at the Butter Churn said you mentioned heading east. So I went east. That night I got mugged by two men. They pointed a gun at me and I transferred all my credits to them.”

“They give you that?” I say, gesturing to my own eye.

He looks up. The short, bitter laugh startles me. “Oh no. That first night was nothing compared to what happened after.” He takes a few deep breaths, and I see he's shaking. Should I hold him? Something tells me no. “I met a man and his daughter on the stone road. They were travelling to Zarabetha to get married.” Pytre makes a face and shrugs. “The man had some pistols and the girl had a big Bowie knife. I figured if I went with them, I’d be better off than by myself. Protection, you know? But… I didn’t like having to hear… things. Between them. You, know… at night.”

I give him a sympathetic nod. Incest is perfectly legal here, or should I say, not illegal. Nothing is. It’s a wonder people manage to live out whole lives on this shitty, lawless moon.

“I figured maybe you’d stop in Zarabetha too. Maybe I’d catch up with you, or at least find out something about where you could be headed.” Pytre stares down at his hands again, shredding the side of a plasti-form wrapper. “After a week, we were attacked by a group of… I don't know—monsters? They were men, but only in the physical sense. They killed the father first. Did it quick… but they took their time with the girl.” Pytre’s bottom lip trembles and when he speaks again, his voice is so quiet I can barely hear him. “They cut her belly open when they were done. Threw something at me and I caught it. Instinctively, you know?” Pytre mimes catching something in both hands, blinks rapidly and a few tears splash down on his raised palms. “It was a tiny baby. No... not really a baby yet.” He’s crying freely now and my gut twists in anger for what he’s suffered. “I fumbled and dropped it in the dust. That poor little baby. I don’t even know if it was alive. One of them stomped on it and then punched me in the head. I think I was unconscious after that. They hit me a lot.”

He touches his bruises. His hand is trembling.

I want to tell him the baby was probably already dead—few women carry to term here, and that's not even factoring in the inbreeding—but I don’t know how that would cheer him.

“How did you get away?”

When he meets my gaze again, his eyes go flat. “I didn’t. Not for weeks.”

I frown, waiting for him to explain. The roaming gangs in the wastelands aren’t the type to spare anyone.

“I told them I was a Disciple of Rime and they laughed, but I started retelling the Book of Rime, and the Trials of the Desert, and anything I could think of. Turns out they’re a superstitious lot. They made me keep going every day until my voice gave out. Then they’d force me to eat the… meat.”

I nodded. Fucking cannibals.

“Then, every night, the four of them would take turns raping me.”

I was afraid that was where his story was going. I want to run out into the desert and find the shitbags that did this to Pytre and force them to eat their own dicks before I skin them alive… I reach out to touch Pytre’s arm and he flinches. His laugh is hollow.

“I know you were dying to… how did you put it? ‘Break in my virgin ass’? Well, sorry to say you’re too late.”

“I’m going to kill every last one of them.”

“No need,” Pytre says with a little shrug. His eyes are now dry. “They were sloppy one night tying me up to sleep and I got loose. One of them had a gun. An antique. I shot two of them in the head before the others knew what was happening. The third I shot twice as he was getting up, but the gun jammed and I had to throw a punch at the last one. Managed to knock him to the ground. Then I beat him to death with a big rock.”

I stare at Pytre—he yawns wide, looking around.

“I’d like to sleep now,” he says, his voice devoid of any emotion. I just nod and begin collecting the empty food wrappers as he settles back down on the bed. He’s asleep before I’m finished.


Next day, we move into a bigger room. This one has two cots and about a foot and half of floor between them, and a rickety old chair and table to one side. I expect Apple to object about the added cost, but to my surprise, he says nothing. I feel like there's something he's not telling me.

Pytre wakes only long enough to eat and use the toilet. I'm still waiting for him to ask me who my companion is. Apple, for his part, barely spares Pytre a glance, and doesn't complain when he has to sleep on the floor the first night. Again... something is up. I can feel it.

I haven't worked in days and I'm going to have to soon to keep feeding us—I can't ask Apple to chip in for Pytre's voracious appetite, but I really don't want to leave Pytre's side. I know that I've turned this into a mission—if I heal Pytre, maybe I'll be able to look in the mirror one day.

Yeah, right... I'm the reason he wound up in the hands of cannibal rapists. There won't be any absolution for me. The best I can do is keep the three of us alive.

Sighing, I lean my head back on the dented, dirty scrap metal—the wall is so thin I can hear the guy next door pissing—and watch Pytre's chest rising and falling slowly.


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On reworking an old fairy tale

I've been in a terrible mood this last year... writing has been largely like pulling teeth. The WIP I've been working on (Charlie) had me neck deep in research to the point where I wasn't writing at all for days. So, I decided to stitch together an ode to my favourite odd couple, Beauty and the Beast, to cheer myself up.

My mom read a lot to me as a kid. All kinds of books... but I tended to gravitate towards this one illustrated copy of Beauty and the Beast (Deborah Apy) based on the 1756 version by Madame Le Prince de Beaumont that I mentioned in my last post.

I still have the book... it's a little tattered and torn and the pages have darkened a bit, and the illustrations have gone murkier than they were before, but it's what I consider one of my few cherished possessions. I loved the fact that the castle was immense and empty. I loved the idea of the mysterious hidden garden. It made me laugh how terribly angsty and melodramatic the Beast was... and it creeped me out to no end that he would stand there staring at Beauty while she slept: "...the Beast walked to the side of Beauty's bed and looked at her longingly. He stood this way, for many hours, blood dripping from his hands."

One of the most amusing parts was that in all the illustrations, the Beast was always done up in what looked like fancy bathrobes.

©1980 and 1983 by Michael Hague

The story was weird and I loved it. But, it wasn't without its faults... for one, Beauty was a complete airhead. It made me wonder, more and more as I got older, what the Beast saw in her. I also didn't like the nightly marriage proposals.

Oh... and I hated these two:

©1980 and 1983 by Michael Hague

Adele and Jeanette, Beauty's sisters, two utterly despicable creatures. I never got why they were so horrible to Beauty... but then, that's the nature of a lot of fairy tales—you have little backstory and characterizations tend to be exaggerated.

I could have gone dark with my version (and I may yet one day) but I wanted the first out of my fairy tale collection (because yes... there are more) to be a nice break from the seriousness of other things I'm writing, a break from the atrocities happening in the world, and something to put a smile on my face. And it worked. I love this silly story. :)

It's a mix of the Apy/Beaumont version and the Disney one. I actually considered putting in a Gaston type character, but it felt superfluous. Instead, I went with a small cast, stuck close to the original Beauty and the Beast plot but added the much needed comic relief that the Disney version brought with the talking furniture sidekicks crossed with those from The Black Hole: A Spaceship Adventure for Robots. Then I filled it with sci fi and fantasy movie references and made the sisters a wee bit less evil. Oh and Juniper Bo might not be the bookworm that Belle is in the Disney version, but he's definitely not the birdbrain that is Apy's Beauty... and Marrex is a touch less melodramatic than Apy's Beast. ;)

©1980 and 1983 by Michael Hague

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Writer & Reader Expectations and Some Ramblings About Romance

It's funny, when I set out to write Exposed I was worried about a few things. One, that I would weird people out by using a great Welsh word as a safeword. Two, that my usual readers would find it too lighthearted, compared to my usual stuff. Three, that Emyr calling Greg "Daddy" would bother people. That's what I expected.... and then the unexpected happened: it never once occurred to me that I'd be reading reviews with the words "BDSM", "Dom", or "sub" in them. What's up with that? Did I market the book wrong? I never tagged it as BDSM, never mentioned any kind of D/s relationship, said that it was a little kinky, and told folks it was just a cute love story. What happened?

Just reader expectations, I believe, and ones that I couldn't predict because I don't know what they are. I was just saying to a friend that I have a distinct disadvantage when it comes to writing books that readers include in a genre I didn't even know existed until after I published my first book.

The B/l (or Daddy/lg or Daddy/lb) relationships I've witnessed in my life were just sweet, loving, and devoted... really nurturing things (with some really silly play ...and, yes, occasional spanking thrown in for good measure) and I set out to capture that lovely fondness I've admired so much. (And I often mentally hug Greg and Emyr for really getting there!)

But, there were reader expectations with the words "Daddy kink", (something I tagged it for just as a warning) that I did not know about. And... now I know (and knowing is half the battle! GI Joe... ahem sorry, I'm on cold meds)

So, anyway, next book I write, I'll see if I can word the blurb a little more clearly to reflect what the book is actually about (or maybe not about?)

Which brings me to Romance in general...

Folks reading Caged keep saying "this isn't really a Romance" to which I sit there, scratching my head, wondering where they got the idea that it was a Romance. It has romantic elements, for sure. Life does in general, doesn't it? But Caged? A Romance? Max? A Romance? I don't even know if Exposed is a Romance. I keep squinting at definitions and wondering what this whole Romance thing is about (disclaimer: I'm aromantic1). It feels far more nebulous a genre than what I read: Has robots? Sci-fi. Has dragons? Fantasy. Has robot dragons? Sci-fi/fantasy. thumbs up

With Romance, well... the requirements seem to depend on who you talk to.

I did read two books that are considered Romance when I was younger. One was called Sea Star: Private Life of Anne Bonny which was pretty rapey if I recall, and the other one was about um... the wild west? I think? Maybe about a doomed love triangle? Also rapey. So, my young adolescent self drew the conclusion that "Romance Novels" equated "rapey". However, another thing they both had in common was a lot more plot circling around love and sex than I had ever previously read before.

Hey, all my books have plots that focus primarily on the relationship between the protagonists. So... Romance?

And... Novelist Walter Scott defined the literary fiction form of romance as "a fictitious narrative in prose or verse; the interest of which turns upon marvellous and uncommon incidents." 2

My characters certainly encounter uncommon incidents. So... Romance?

Also from Wikipedia:

According to the Romance Writers of America, the main plot of a romance novel must revolve about the two people as they develop romantic love for each other and work to build a relationship. Both the conflict and the climax of the novel should be directly related to that core theme of developing a romantic relationship, although the novel can also contain subplots that do not specifically relate to the main characters' romantic love.

Furthermore, a romance novel must have an "emotionally satisfying and optimistic ending." Some romance novel authors and readers believe the genre has additional restrictions, from plot considerations (such as the protagonists' meeting early on in the story), to avoiding themes (such as adultery). Other disagreements have centered on the firm requirement for a happy ending; some readers admit stories without a happy ending, if the focus of the story is on the romantic love between the two main characters (e.g., Romeo and Juliet). While the majority of romance novels meet the stricter criteria, there are also many books widely considered to be romance novels that deviate from these rules. Therefore, the general definition, as embraced by the RWA and publishers, includes only the focus on a developing romantic relationship and an optimistic ending.

All of my books, including Devil (if you look at it the way I do), focus on the relationships of the MCs and have HFN/HEAs.... So... Romance?

I think, maybe, in the end, that my books are Romance books, but only to folks who don't have too rigid expectations. When it comes to meeting more stringent do's/don'ts and customary story development... I will definitely fall short, because I just don't know what those expectations are. But that's a-ok! Despite the fact that I write and will continue to write entirely for myself, plenty of other people do enjoy my books, and that is absolutely amazing.

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1I'm the kind of aromantic who'd actually like to feel deeply about someone, hence my exploration of love in my books. Heh, it's like I'm finding love through writing :)

2 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romance_novel

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