I used to know how to put myself back together.<\/p>\n
I lost that when you burned my blueprints.<\/p>\n
With your fucking tragic eyes and your host of demons, you made me bleed.<\/p>\n
And smiled when I asked for more.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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