{"id":851,"date":"2014-12-01T17:48:17","date_gmt":"2014-12-01T22:48:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.beydeckard.com\/blog\/?p=851"},"modified":"2014-12-01T18:32:36","modified_gmt":"2014-12-01T23:32:36","slug":"fall","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/fall\/","title":{"rendered":"Fall"},"content":{"rendered":"

I want to reach for you.<\/p>\n

Every fibre of my being strains\u00a0towards you, dying for the home I have found\u00a0in your arms. Your wool coat is damp with the autumn mist, and\u00a0I know that if I took handfuls of it and buried my face in your collar you'd smell like rain and cold nights.<\/p>\n

I can't look into your eyes.\u00a0Dark sapphires that retreat into the shadow of your mistrust...\u00a0But you can't bear my gaze either.<\/p>\n

What a pair we are, my love.<\/p>\n

I keep my hands buried deep in my pockets and just watch you walk away.<\/p>\n

You say leaving is easier<\/em>.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

How does that explain the ease<\/em> with which you'll find yourself again between my sheets when life's cruelty\u00a0has you frantic and fragile?<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I want to reach for you. Every fibre of my being strains\u00a0towards you, dying for the home I have found\u00a0in your arms. Your wool coat is damp with the autumn mist, and\u00a0I know that if I took handfuls of it and buried my face in your collar you’d smell like rain and cold nights. I can’t look into your eyes.\u00a0Dark sapphires that retreat into the shadow of your mistrust…\u00a0But you can’t bear my gaze either. What a pair we are, my love. I keep my hands buried deep in my pockets and just watch you walk away. You say leaving … <\/p>\n

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