{"id":438,"date":"2014-07-25T16:31:15","date_gmt":"2014-07-25T20:31:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.beydeckard.com\/blog\/?p=438"},"modified":"2014-07-25T16:31:15","modified_gmt":"2014-07-25T20:31:15","slug":"tears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/tears\/","title":{"rendered":"Tears"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I don't cry a lot. In fact, I can't remember the last time it happened. I can think of one time, and that was nearly three years ago.<\/p>\n<p>I don't like crying. Some say it's catharsis. To me, it's just a stuffy nose and a slight headache if it goes on a bit. I have other ways of relieving tension.<\/p>\n<p>I have an ex who used to argue that I was heartless because I don't find certain movies sad.<\/p>\n<p>Just today I was talking to someone about how I don't like endings, so here are four movies I can't watch the end of for fear that they'll make me cry... because it happened before:<\/p>\n<p>1. Brokeback Mountain - watched late at night at the office along with too much to drink. Cried like a baby.<\/p>\n<p>2. Terminator 2 - need I say more?<\/p>\n<p>3. Armageddon - ok, I may have daddy issues.<\/p>\n<p>4. Dances with Wolves - Ugh. Two Socks.<\/p>\n<p>I watch these but turn them off before the Bad Things happen. Cowardly or just avoiding a stuffy nose? Take your pick.<\/p>\n<p>What movies make <i>you<\/i> cry?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I don&#8217;t cry a lot. In fact, I can&#8217;t remember the last time it happened. I can think of one time, and that was nearly three years ago. I don&#8217;t like crying. Some say it&#8217;s catharsis. To me, it&#8217;s just a stuffy nose and a slight headache if it goes on a bit. I have other ways of relieving tension. I have an ex who used to argue that I was heartless because I don&#8217;t find certain movies sad. Just today I was talking to someone about how I don&#8217;t like endings, so here are four movies I can&#8217;t watch &#8230; <\/p>\n<p class=\"read-more-container\"><a title=\"Tears\" class=\"read-more button\" href=\"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/tears\/#more-438\" aria-label=\"Read more about Tears\">Read more<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"generate_page_header":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[95,5],"tags":[145,67,91],"class_list":["post-438","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-about","category-my-life","tag-crying-shame","tag-movies","tag-random"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s4sexs-tears","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1482,"url":"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/tears-in-the-rain\/","url_meta":{"origin":438,"position":0},"title":"Tears","author":"Bey","date":"December 27, 2015","format":false,"excerpt":"Every time I close my eyesI see you crying in the pouring rain.All I want is to kiss your lipsAnd warm your hands in mine;Give you my shoulderAnd hold your pain at bay.But neither of us is strong enough,Nor weak enough to try.So you sit in the rainWith your tearsAnd\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Bey's Tales&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Bey's Tales","link":"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/category\/writing-2\/beys-tales-writing-2\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/coat-t.png?fit=800%2C317&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/coat-t.png?fit=800%2C317&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/coat-t.png?fit=800%2C317&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/coat-t.png?fit=800%2C317&ssl=1&resize=700%2C400 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":123,"url":"https:\/\/beydeckard.com\/blog\/random-post-in-which-i-share-my-favourite-movies\/","url_meta":{"origin":438,"position":1},"title":"Random post in which I share my favourite movies","author":"Bey","date":"April 30, 2014","format":false,"excerpt":"Taking a break from writing to give you a list of my top twenty-five movies, presented in no particular order (and updated from time to time). 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No, you don't.\"\"I do.\"\"You're just upset because he's seeing someone else. Call me when you start thinking with your dick again.\"\"God... you're an asshole.\"\"See, that's better. Yes. I am an asshole. Now go peddle your love somewhere else... 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